Sexual healing

Birth is a sexual thing.





No shit, says you.





But it was in ways that I didn't anticipate at all.





After birth, waiting for my milk to come in, pumping away at my breast with that little hand-pump felt for all the world like a masturbatory endeavor. There was all the anxiety, shame, furtive quick hand motions.



There was just how yummy and luscious I felt during pregnancy and right after. My boobs were gorgeous, and I really enjoyed them; wearing low-cut shirts at every opportunity.



Something has dried up. Not only have I lost interest in sex, I'm generally covering up more. What's happening?